If only things were different.
If only i could change my life.
If only im not the oldest.
If only i had someone else bear the responsibility.
If only......
If only......
If only......

If i just have the power to do all this,
Maybe it will turn out differently.
But my fate has already been written and this is what I am fated to do.
What else can I do.
I can only be patience and be ready for all the responsibility I will have to bear.
Its hard for a young girl like me.
To be bothered by all this.
But what else can I do.
They're my family and i need to help them.
It may not be easy but I hav to try.
Sacrifices are needed when things turns difficult.
I wish all things problems ends as soon as possible.
So i dont have to worry about me & my family anymore.

Oh god! Please give me a sign to settle this.
I wana be back with them as soon as possible.

My heart aches but does anyone knows?
No.

So I must be strong!
Besides, I am the eldest. ='(