May 12, 2010 ♥
Suffering inside,
It's killing me.
I'm giving up,
My body is giving up.
Too much to handle.
I can't believe things have
gotten worse to the extend
that I'm feeling Lost.
Lost in this thick and creepy mist.
Im alone, And I'm suffering.
The pain is excruciating.
It doesn't feels numb anymore.
It's building up, and it can't be stop anymore.
My suffering gets worser.
I'm losing. Im suffocating.
I'm dying. Nothing much left i can do.
But when times like this..
When you think all that suffering will kill you.
And help you end that misery.
Well, its only dreams.
That will never happen.
Now what do i do..?
Hmmph... Me... Give up is always the easiest way out.
But will it be easier afterwards,
as you predicted or assume.
Not everything you plan, always go your way.
So what i'm doing now is,
Being optimistic.
Think that there's always, a way to settle this.
Funny how i say it,
like its so easy.. right?
But it happens.
And it's true.
Some things are better left unsaid.
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About being a good friend and about life -
I learn this from the anime show, Naruto.
You must be thinking its pathetic.
And childish all but actually,
it has more meaning than anyonee can imagine.
What life really is and how it has resemblance
with all the humans who lives among us.
How most human actually have the same kind of thinking.
Tho they don't know each other.
Even if there are parts, where it can't really happen.
But if you were to paint it, in reality.
Some things are actually connected.
That story made my life, a more meaningful one.
Learning to persevere and never give up.
To always be there and fight for your friends.
To always be generous and share your experience.
Teamwork and working together as one.
To understand other people's journey of life.
To make people persevere for their own lives.
There's so much to learn and see from this show.
And of course, the harsh reality of life.
DEATH AND SUFFERING.
You can never really run away from that.
And when the time comes, you will die.
There's so much more to life.
Explore and search the meaning of it.
Why some people will say,
"Life is worth living" =)
The Details. ♥
♥ Just mE & tHem.
*22 this year.
*My baby boy, Waidi.
*My hubby, Eddy.
"What's life without them?"
"NO LIFE, They are my everything."
