I feel something is missing in my life nowadays. But i dont know what.
2010 is already here and im growing another year older.
Its scary to get older. And i dont want to be older. But what choice do we have.

I think i know what is missing but i not gonna think about it.
Cause i know its wrong.
But no worries, the journey will soon end. And i dont need to think about it anymore.
Missing something that i shouldnt.

Im not getting myself into the pit.
I cant but since its gona end soon, might as well enjoy it while i can.

Edward.....

Things shouldnt be this way.
I dont want to hope.
Hope has pros and cons.
If u hope and it will happen its fine
But if it doesnt, u'll be disappointed.
Why get hurt because of hope?
Hoping things to get your way.
I'll move on when that time comes.

I can be sure of that
Cause its gona be too far to see anymore.
Its easier that way.
So much easier when its like that.

What would you do, if you think
You've found someone u searching for
But its just like a fairytale.
It wont last.
And you have no choice but to move on.
I guess it hurts? Nehh.
Just freaking shit. U're stuck
But have to keep moving cause u noe it will never happen.

Keep moving forward.
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2010

Not much of a year to looking forward for me. Waidi's goink to sch.
Im worried. Should i be?
I dont know.

Im freaking tired from the days.
And i dont know how to make it all
Go away.
I just want everything to stop for awhile.
But time is moving so fast,
And i dont like it that much.
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