hmm.. realli bored with life u noe. sumtimes i feel like i just wanna explode. im not stress, just feeling so sick of life. but wat is life without problems. but mayb it is not a problem. its just tad she is being such a PEST. i dunno wat's her problem. alwaes getting in our nerves. u are old already u noe. u dun hav to react like tis. day by day.. u are just trying to get the attention. pls la. i noe ure bored with life. but u dun have to alwaes blame my husband for everytink he does or he doesnt. try looking urself in the mirror.. ure not perfect either. u've made mistakes too. wat kind of mother wud be soo unfair to ur own children. Eddy may not be a soo good boy. but he has that heart that none of ur other 2 children have. u may not see it bcos its all ur fault tad he has bcome like this. u made hym feel soo left out in the family that turn hym into sumone so stubborn. so rude. with no feeling of pitiful for others. atleast nw he change. ALOT. and even that u cant see. u are soo blinded by MONEY that this one son of urs who has alwaes been a loner nvr complaint abt u being soo unfair. its only bcos of 'ayah' im still staying wit u under one roof. if not for hym.. i wud have long gone. moii mom treats me better than u do.

im slowly developing this hatred towards u. bit by bit all of ur mistakes, the hurting words that came out from ur mouth.. slowly digs up the patience in me. sumhow i just have this bad feeling moii patience wont last soo long. i will sumhow explode like a volcano. u made me be like this. even moii respect for u has realli fade. i dun care wat u gonna sae to pple. i dun give a shit. why shud i be good if im not just bcos i wanna win ur heart. im not tad kind of person. im bad i show it. im not sum bloody bitch like shikin to pretend im good all those stuff but actuallie devil in disguise. u dun like the way i am. than tad's ur problem. i like the wae i am and im sticking wit it. moii attitude may suck but its only bcos u've made me feel and act tis way towards u. afterall, revenge is sweet. i may not do it obviously but i can make u feel the pain and make u suffer bit by bit. u gave me a hard time. i'll give u a hard time as well. i will make fee soo fucked up that ur blood pressure goes higher. haha. hatred is a dangerous thing u noe. just watch out.

anywaes.. forget moii fucking mother in law. i wanna talk abt wats coming. eddy's bdae is coming and hiss present is still not wrap yet. hmm... ive bought the wrapping paper. bbut lazie wanna wrap it la. sumhow i feel soo tired. i wish things wudnt b soo complicated. fine la. forget it. just try to calm down.. haiish. tmr have to see her face again. bloody shit uh.