Haiish... i made a big mistake u noe. The dae will come. It's on the 25th of this month. i cant believe that i didnt use moii brain u noe. anywaes.. no point regreting aanymore. it happened. and now i have to face it. and i just tot tad moi life was changing. mayb i was wrong. i havent change. im stll me. look moiself in the mirror... can tis gerl looking right back at me.. change? can she. she's a mother to a child. a wife to a husband. but why isnt she changing? how long does tis fucking life of mine will change. will i change? tad's the question. will i? im big enuff alrdy but i cant seem to change. why not? do i wana be like moi cousins all. cocked up.. haiish.. hopefully not. i never learn from moi mistake. when will i learn.. hopefully this wil be the last mistake i'll make. FINAL. if i have to make another big mistake tad has sumtink to do with the government. i dun noe wat else to sae.. i probably just givee up on moi life. haiish.. i NEED to change!

Hopefully this 25th is notink serious. haiish. probably just fine. but i dunno how much.. haiish.. i feel like crying sehh.. i've alwaes been a failure. a disappointment. i've disappoint so many pple in moi life alrdy.. too much.. making everybody believing in me tad i can change. no one is to noe tis... especially not moi mother. she will freaked out. definitely... she trust tad ive changed. i have stick it tad way.. if not.. she wont trust me anymore. she wont.... i love her alot. its just tad i dont show it and i never realli told her tad. its moii mess.. i'll clean it up moiself. feeling soo down now.. i wish i cud be in school wit moii frens. but there's no afternoon class so i nvr went to school. haiish.. be optimistic... like wat Firman said. so... i have to be optimistic. have to... "Things will change. It just takes time ryte?... It just takes time."


-azimah.. no prob zimah.. things have change now ryte? hopefully la.. haha. anywAes.. if u need sumone to share ur probs.. im here ok. be strong beb. takecare.