Have u ever felt when it seems like the whole world is crumbling down? Have u ever felt like u are given up. Well... im goink thru it ryte now? I dunno why... I feel like there is no use im alive anymore. U noe.. I feel like everytink has given up on me. Even hope! Mayb it's a small mistake but i felt that the whole world was shaking when i got the news. I cud realli feel it and that i felt that everytink i was hoping for... wasnt real. It was just dreams. Dreams that i can never reached. Im bad.. I can never be good isnt it? It hurts me when i heard what she said about me. How cud she talk about me behind my back.. It didnt realli matter at ferst..But slowly it just seems to flow thru moi veins and straight to the heart. Now i felt the poison running thru me. Now i feel the pain. It's eating me up slowly. Bit by bit... U noe.. sumhow i dunno why i have to live to PLEASED pple. why? Im sick and tired of being so FAKE. And i have to be that "Ms Goody". Hah.. Who am i kidding? Moiself? LOL. I just give up Eddy. Give up.. I may not be the perfect "daughter-in-law". But i sure noe how to be moiself. Im not gonna put a masked on moii face anymore. I just wanna be me ok. That's final. Marriage? It's never easy. NEVER. There's alwaes mouths talking abt everytink u do. They just dont get enuff talking abt u... Haiish.. What have i done to get this kind of treatment.

Pitiful life ryte? Hah. Shud have tot abt it b4 getting married. Haiish.. Humans.. Two faced freaks. U were "good pple" when i ferst met u. But NOW.. I saw the devils of GOOD PPLE. Putting up a show.. Haha. How funny eh? But it's ok.. Time will tell. Who is the good one and who's the bad one... God is fair. He will show it one day. kay la. It's almost 3am. I better get sum sleep. Need to wake up in afew more hours. Toodles. Hope for me that I'm able to go further thru this life of mine. =}