well.. even i was late for school just now..
i still went.. cos im not gonna stay at home..
it'll just make me feel worse. doesnt it...
anywae.. it was also partly moii mom's fault too..
if she hadnt been a big mouth to call eddy..
notink like tish wud happen.. sucks man..
haiish... wat luck.. urgh~ forget it.

i wanna talk wat happen at school la.....
never felt betta goink to school.. atleast i have great
frens.. who wud be caring and consent for me..
betta than eddy.. who doesnt even how i feel...
atleast there are other guys out there who treat me
betta than hym.. thx guys.... for cheering me up..
atleast i felt betta.. much much betta...

even kecik made moii dae.. just being tad irritating
made me laff.. hahas. haiish.. if only eddy knows how
to even treat me tad way.. i cant remember when was the
last time u even irritated me or made me laff.. or even
doing sumting sweet for me.. ohh... mayb like...
2yrs ago! tad was the ferst and the last birthdae tad u made
me happie.. how bout now? none. last year.....? notink..
and tis year... still notink.. mayb i have live on moii
life being soo bored with you...

dEarest eDdy,

Things were great when we were together last time.
The things u would do for me or even saying things
that would make laugh so hard. I somehow never saw that
again after i gotten pregnant. You totally treat me differently.
During that 1 year together.. It was sOo sweet. We've
never quarrel or even misunderstood about each other.
It was always lovely. How i wish i could turn back time.
Somehow i couldnt remember what has made you change
drastically. Now that you've changed soo much..
Has made me so numb that i've just given up on us.
Now i feel that there's nothing more i want to do
to make us back together. It's you're turn now.
I've done so much, and i wasnt appreciated.
Why not you're try how it feels when you do something
for that someone you alot and ended up he repeatedly did it
again and again. You'll probably given up sooner than me.
But there's this thing which hold me back to let you go long
time ago. Love. I hate how much i love you. I could never let
go then. But now all i want to do is to let you go.
Probably the love had fade you know. Or probably I've given
up on you. And to think what my teacher taught me was true.
Dont ever let someone give up on you cause it
wont be that easy to earn it back. Maybe you need to learn
the hard way eddy. You were my baby but im not sure
who are to me already. Maybe nobody. It will be nobody
if you dont come and make it better. Its all up to you now.
I wont come back until you make us get back together.
Your choice eddy. Im not going to do anything anymore.
Good luck eddy.